Today, as I was home alone, I finally had a chance to read this post. And what perfect timing! Lately, it has been a great struggle for me to remain positive as I go through my own medical journey. Tired of all the needle pokes (now needing done weekly) and losing my focus. So thank you for your honestly in sharing about your fears and thoughts. Today as I surrendered it all back to the Lord just shortly before reading this, He reminded me of the motto He had put in my heart for this new year ~”Forward in Faith, Not Backward in Fear!” With that motto and your post, I clearly see the Lord has heard my heart once again for help. Thanks for sharing.